When the boredom attacks

Jadi ceritanya gue gatau lagi mau ngapain, berhubung udah lama ngga gambar-gambar akhirnya gue memutuskan untuk ngegambar random gitu. Seperti biasa, yang gue ngga jauh-jauh dari pohon *cumabisagambarpohon* :") Dan seperti biasa juga pasti gue ngewarnainnya sebagian besar cuma pake pensil warna di airin *ketauanmalesnya*. Sebelum gambar pohon gue nyoba gambar orang dulu sih nyontek-nyontek gitu dan hasilnya iyuh kamseupay jadi yaudahlahya gambar pohon aja.. Kebetulan banget gue nemu quotes bagus di google "All seasons have something to order' by Jeanette Walls. Akhirnya gue sekalian aja ngegambar pohon dari empat musim yang berbeda. Lengkap deh gambarnya udah ada quotesnya :3 Liat deh hasilnya.......

Happy 46th Birthday Dear Papa :)

Gatau mau pake basa basi apa langsung aja cuma mau ngucapin selamat ulang tahun buat papa. Semoga papa selalu sehat, murah rezeki, diberkahi dan dimudahkan segala urusannya oleh Allah swt. Semoga papa makin jadi papa yang hebat, makin sayang sama kita semua, makin unyu sama mama, makin ga Jepang biar pribumi ajah -_- Maaf ya pa tadi pagi cuma bilang 'selamat ulang tahun ya pa, sukses dunia akhirat' trus ga ngucapin lewat media apapun lagi. Mungkin kesannya kayak ga peduli, tapi maksudnya ga gitu kooook. Berhubung kita orangnya sama-sama keras jutek dan suka nyolot-nyolotan jarang ngobrol jadinya awkward aja gitu. Mau ngucapin lewat sms hp nya eror, lewat facebook wall nya di nonactive -_- yaudah deh lewat blog aja ya. Walaupun kyknya ga bakal dibaca juga, but there's a posibility if one day you may found out this  sincere post from me to you ;) 

Oiya aku selalu bangga loh punya papa kayak papa. Papa selalu punya sesuatu yg bisa dijadiin contoh, bikin semangat. Contoh yang paling ga akan pernah aku lupain, pas lagi mau persiapan UN/SNMPTN, aku gantung jakun papa yang ada emblem senat nya di dada kanan. Tiap liat itu, yg tadinya males dan putus asa trus jadi semangat lagi, semangat biar bisa kayak mama papa, bisa foto jakuners bertiga :') Papa juga perhatian dan selalu nyemangatin anak-anaknya. Walaupun kalo lagi ngomong kesannya nyebelin karena  nadanya jutek, nusuk, gamau dibantah (trus ujung-ujungnya aku suka ga setuju dan diem aja trus jadi males lanjut ngobrol) tapi sebenernya aku tau papa sebenernya ngomong biasa aja, ga ada maksud untuk jutek dan nusuk. Aku ngerti kok soalnya aku juga kalo ngomong suka dibilang jutek padahal maksudnya ga gitu ._.

Trus yang paling hebat tuh setiap orang yang ngeliat kita pasti selalu bilang 'mirip banget' widih seolah gen dominan nya dari papa semua. Padahal aku kalo ngaca ga ngeliat apaan yg mirip sama papa =_= gimana dong. Tapi kalo sifat, aku akuin emang mirip sih. Sedihnya, sifat-sifat yg dominan di aku tuh sifat yg negatif semua, kyk jutek, emosian, dll haft, Pengen deh dapet gen dominan papa yg ngebawa sifat aktif di sosial, gampang bergaul, pinter, hardworking, disiplin, hafthaft doain aku bisa kyk gitu ya, jadi ga cuma dapet jeleknya aja. Selain itu, kita juga punya hobby samaan loh, baca buku sama dengerin lagu! hehe. Kita juga suka makan! tapi kita sama-sama ga gemuk-gemuk!  :D Kompak. 

Tapi yang bikin heran, walaupun kita punya so many things in common tapi kita tetep ga bisa get along well, kenapa ya pa? aku juga gatau -_- yaudahlahyah. Trus kita sekalinya beda tuh beda banget. Aku suka banget  oseng cumi tp benci cumi goreng bumbu kuning. Tapi papa kebalikannya =_= Papa rajin banget olahraga tiap hari aku males banget, setaun sekali kali olahraganya. Papa suka cerita-cerita banyak (bukan ngobrol) kalo lagi kumpul di meja makan tapi aku lebih suka diem trus dengerin trus ngerespon di dalem hati. Hebat ya banyak sama banyak beda, jadi impas.

Yaudah deh sekarang penutupnya aku mau minta maaf kalo belom bisa jadi anak yang sepenuhnya solehah, belom bisa ngasih contoh ke ade-ade, ngaji sama yasinan aja rajinan mereka haft gimana dong. Aku juga suka nyusahin, jutek, cuek, menyendiri dan terkesan ga peduli. Aku peduli kooook, tapi pedulinya dalem hati aja :) Kalo ada masalah apa-apa, aku pasti langsung ka atas kan, itu bukan nya ga peduli tapi aku suka nangis trus malu kalo nangis di depan papa kan udah gede, pengen bikin kesan cewe strong hehehe. Maaf juga sering marah dan kesel berlebihan sama papa. Semoga di taun ini semuanya jadi lebih baik lagi yaaa. Ga cuma kehidupan papa, ga cuma kehidupan aku, tapi kehidupan kita semua. Trus semoga kita semua makin bisa get along with each other really well :) 

♥mamapapa♥ ily to the moon and back

the one who always inspires me

Hari-hari gabuthth

Halo blog, how ya doin? kangen sama gue ga? :') udah lama ga cerita-cerita disini nih. Padahal belakangan ini ga ada kegiatan apa-apa selain mantengin laptop dari bangun tidur sampe tidur lagi. ngga keluar kamar kecuali makan sama ke kamar mandi, hebat ga? Haft. Sepertinya gue lagi menjalani fase bertapa versi modern. Oiya mau tau ga gue ngapain aja di depan laptop dan apa aja yang udah gue dapetin selama hari-hari gabut gue streaming radio seharian? Yang pasti gue lakuin, streaming radio, login twitter, tumblr, facebook. Nah trus yang gue dapetin di hari-hari gabut gue adalah peningkatan skill stalking. Gue nge-stalk twitter orang yg tweetnya udah berpuluh ribu (lebay) sampe tweet pertamanya. Stalk random people di fb sampe tiba-tiba gue ga sengaja nge'like' sesuatu dan semenjak itu gue trauma, berenti ngestalk deh -_- Gue juga mengejar ketinggalan untuk nntn film-film lama yang ga gue tonton gara-gara sibuk belajar sama les (sok) such as the notebook, the vow, curious case of benjamin button, changeling, red riding hood, one day, etc. 

Sebenernya ga senyampah itu juga sih kegabutan gue. Gue mantengin grup sama rajin ol chat biar cepet kenal sama temen-temen baru, bermanfaat kan?? Gamau kejadian ntar pas masuk kicep sendiri sementara yang lain udh akrab :D Trus since gue taun ini kebagian jatah nyoblos, gue dengan niatnya nge-browsing  tentang cagub-cawagub di google, tp tetep aja sih gue gatau banyak dan tetep bingung sampe saat-saat terahir. Selain itu, gue juga sering merenungkan segala aspek kehidupan gue (apadeh). Gatau kenapa kalo gabut bawaannya galau. Tapi renungan gue membuahkan hasil loh. Nih gue kasih tau hasil-hasil renungan  gue selama hari gabut 

1. Sometimes we have to force ourselves-in a good way. Ga boleh terus pengen ada di comfort zone terus, harus berani keluar dari comfort zone dan lama-lama juga bakal jadi comfort. Alhasil kita bisa ngelebarin comfortzone kita. (ngerti ga?)
2. STOP CHASING. Usaha sih wajib, tapi harus di batesin juga. Lo pasti tau kan kapan lo harus lanjut kapan keliatannya usaha lo sia-sia. Kalo lo udh merasa semuanya sia-sia, stop. Jangan mundur, stop aja -_- 
3. Harus bisa terima sama sikap-sikap org yang ga ngenakin, yang memperlakukan orang tanpa mikir seakan-akan orang itu ga bisa sakit hati :)
4. Gausah ngarep, bikin sakit hati. 

Nah udah gue kasih tau tuh, sekarang gue gatau lagi mau cerita apa. Jadi udahan aja ya, dadah :)

28 April 2012 ♥ Secondhand Serenade

I was in the 2nd grade of JHS when I started to listen to secondhand serenade. The first song I heard was Awake and it really got me being so in love with the song and decided to search for another Secondhand serenade's songs.

I was just very excited knowing John Vesely will come to Jakarta. The concert held at April 28th in Tennis Indoor Senayan. I've told you already some stuffs about me having the ticket in my previous post and now Im going to tell you about how did the concert goes last night. Atik and I arrived at 6.15pm and we pray first, then went to the line. Surprisingly, the line'd crowded already though the concert started at 8pm. So we stood in line till the gate opened. Finally, the gate had been opened at 7.20pm and we'd already entered the hall at 7.35pm. The stage was simple yet cool, and there was a huge screen on the right side of the stage showing randomly an attention, prohibition, also sometimes behind the stage's scene. 

photo source : http://foto.vivanews.com

I didnt bring the camera and too lazy to take a pict using my phone, so I dont have any pict of the concert, unfortunately. John Vesely made me really drown and enjoyed every song he sang. At the opening, after a few songs, John Vesely pick a number, and dialed it saying thanks for coming tonight. The owner of the phone number is a girl who sit in the middle of VIP area. OMFG I'd just faint if I were her -_- I really am jealous and envy. Here's the list of the songs that was sang in the concert, You and I, Stranger, Pretend, Broken, Let me in , Fix you , Fall for you, Reach for the sky, Your call, Vulnerable, Awake, Stay close dont go, Goodbye, The last song ever, and I cant remember the rest. John Vesely played bass, guitar, and keyboard at the concert, and sometimes another bassist, guitarist, and drummer accompanied him. John about to ended the concert after singin Goodbye. But after he's off to the stage, the audience loudly scream 'we want more' then he went back to the stage saying he's going to sing one more song, it was The Last Song Ever :') 

Realizing Atik and I went there by busway, and we had to stand in line for more than an hour, and we stood up in a whole concert, we were just abt to die of tiredness. But it really was fun and awesome. 

                                                        ♥ Secondhand Serenade

PS :

Pas di konser jadi galau max, dan pagi-pagi liat di internet judul artikel konser Secondhand Serenade 'Galau Berjamaah'. Nonton secondhand serenade kemaren itu sekalian jadi penutup kegalauan gue. Semangat belajar buat intensif, ayo mangat cemuanya.

27 April 2012 ♥

Agenda gue adalah TO-tuker tiket-beli buku. TO apa? biasalah TO SNMPTN yang super keren itu soal-soalnya. Tiket apa? Tiket konser Secondhand serenade heauehae. Buku apa? Buku buat sumbangan perpus tercinta. 

Tahun lalu Secondhand serenade sempet dateng, tapi pas banget jadwalnya sama ulangan blok, jadi yaudah ikhlasin aja ga nonton :') dan tahun ini doi dateng lagi :'D :'D :'D gue udah bertekad untuk harus nonton, kebetulan atik *a friend of mine who speak both Germany and English very fluently* suka juga dan ngajakin nonton, jadi kita nonton bareng deh. Alhamdulillah yah.. Kita beli tiket bulan Maret awal  *udah keabisan VIP* dan harus nuker tiket sehari sebelum konsernya. Jadi abis TO di bimbel lagsung berangkat deh ke Manggarai dengan penuh kegalauan dan pulangnya sekalian mampir Gramedia Matraman buat beli buku sumbangan. Btw gue mengalami beberapa kejadian awkward pas lagi otw Manggarai sama otw home.

1. Awk mmnt 1 : Di halte kodam pas lagi nunggu atik, ketemu sama bu Esti dan bu Dian. Pas gue salim, katanya pangling ngeliat gue gapake seragam -_-
2. Awk mmnt 2 : Di halte ada 2 cewek desperado, duduknya mengahadap ke kali nya gitu, membelakangi jalan raya dan.....nangis. Gue ngerinya mereka mau terjun atau gimana, tapi ternyata ngga. Alhamdulillah segalau-galaunya gue ganyampe nangis di halte :') Thanks to Allah for give me the strength.
3. Awk mmnt 3 : Pas nuker tiket, gue sama atik udah sedih aja gitu ngantrinya panjang dan sebagai manusia yang berakhlak mulia kita ngantri dengan khidmat, ternyata....itu antrian tuker tiket suju -_- dan nuker tiket secondhand di sebelahnya, gaperlu ngantri.
4. Awk mmnt 4 : Ketemu Tania sama Ridho di gramed oenjoeh ngedh *sebenernya ini bukan awk mmnt sih*
5. Awk mmnt 5 : Telfon nya gramed bunyi, trus mba-mbanya lagi ga ada, gue pengen iseng-iseng angkat, trus mba nya dateng, ke gap deh.
6. Awk mmnt 6 : Gue superduper dehidrasi banget, akhirnya gue memutuskan untuk beli air mineral di ****** ****** dan ternyata harga air mineral nya 14.500 :') what a waste of money, mi.
7. Awk mmnt 7 : Ketemu lagi sama Tania Ridho di halte busway
8. Awk mmnt 8 : Pas naik 26, ada pengamen nyanyi, liriknya ghuwwwweeeee banget, pengen punya mp3 nya di hp biar bisa didengerin terus. Tunggu sampe pengamennya rekaman dulu.

Itu buku yang harus gue beli buat sumbangan perpus. Pertama kali liat cover nya gatau kenapa terkesan menarik gitu dan gue merasa sangat alim pas ngambil buku itu buat dibeli hahehuahehaheu. Nyampe rumah, gue penasaran dan langsung buka deh liat-liat isinya. Ternyata ga kalah menarik sama covernya. Bermanfaat banget, jadi sayang nyumbangin ke perpusnya =__= Isinya tentang khasiat-khasiat, tata cara doa gitu. Ada juga list doa yang harus dipanjatkan kalo lagi kenapa atau lagi pengen apa atau menghindari apa. Langsung deh gue cari Doa untuk menghindari rasa galau, tapi sayangnya ga ada. Adanya doa untuk menghindari rasa sedih, surat Fathir ayat 34-35. Intinya bukunya bagus deh *loh kok jadi promosi* 

20-26 April 2012 ♥

Celamat ciang cemuanya! Jadi ceritanya semingguan ini adalah minggu tenang pasca UN *mulai dari Jumat 20 Mei sampe Minggu 29 Mei* ya bisa dibilang kayak libur singkat gitu. Gue menghabiskan minggu santai ini dengan........ga melakukan apa-apa :) :) :) Instead of the aches I feel which makes me dont have an interst to do anything, gue ngerasa kayak tenaga gue udah abis total dipake buat UN, jadi I decided to just stay at home and recharge my energy. Kerjaan gue sehari-hari adalah bangun-sholat-makan-tumblr-youtube-ebuddy-makan-sholat-tidur dst. Ngga terasa banget besok Senin udah harus belajar lagi di bimbel ngikutin program super extra mega giga instensif yay :'/ 

FYI di minggu santai ini gue kena virus galau tanpa sebab. Sangat hina sekali bukan? Iya memang. Orang-orang ada yang bilang gue kena sindrom-mau-lepas-seragam ada juga yang bilang sindrom-abis-UN etc, idk and idc. I feel like Im being attacked by a massive sadness and Im just sitting here, staring blankly like an effin retarded. 

Sebenernya gue ga cuma dirumah doang si, hari Selasa-Rabu gue sempet ke bimbel buat ngerjain progress sama pengarahan intensif. Kamis ke sekolah buat balikin buku, nagih kas, foto kelas with my beloved ams :* sedih juga ya kalo dipikir-pikir, bakal pisah sama kelas ini. Gatau kenapa rasanya ams kelas paling solid sepanjang masa dan gue udah bakal ga ketemu-ketemu lagi, padahal setaun ini tiap hari ketemu terus. Mungkin terasa solid karna kira berjuang bareng-bareng, saling bantu ngajarin, saling nyemangatin :') tapi kayaknya ga cuma karna itu. Anak-anaknya ngebaur, seru, walaupun ada slek-slek terselubung tapi tetep terasa nyatu. Mungkin alasan gue galau salah satunya karna bakal pisah sama ams kali ya.

Sayangnya di foto itu ga lengkap, ga ada Naufal karna lagi susulan, I wish you all the best of luck! semoga sukses susulannya!!! *dari kapan sampe kapan sih susulannya?* Trus ga ada Cahyadi karna lagi campak, get well as fast as you can! besok Senin udah kerja rodi loh :') 

Nah pulang dari foto-foto, gue, Denis, Asti udah planning mau fitting baju, but since we still had such a huge time we decided to chillin in my house first. Di rumah gue kita nonton film korea sedih unyu gitu. Asti nangis, gue yang udah nonton 2x juga nangis, tapi Denis ga nangis -_- Pas di tempat fitting baju, ternyata disitu banyak kebaya-kebaya buat nikah gitu. Denis sama Asti akhirnya muter-muter ngeliat kebayanya, kebelet nikah banget ga sih. Trus abis selese fitting kita mampir dulu ke sevel biar gaul,  ngobrol-ngobrol random ketawa-ketawa sampe akhirnya kita dikerubungin lebah, mungkin itu pertanda kalo udah waktunya kita untuk pulang. 

Di sela-sela kegiatan gue itu, tetep aja I've spent most of my time in tumblr. where I can share what I truly feel, no faking, no hiding, no pretending. Saking gencarnya ngereblog-reblog post gue udah sampe 16ribu loh sekarang, tadinya sebelum UN 15ribuan mehaheuahahemuahaheueheumaheduehduhe. Dalam seminggu ngereblog seribu. Am I really that galau... -_- Abis UN niatnya refreshing malah kena serangan galau random mendadak, yaudahlahya I'll just entitle this week as the most galauing week in my entire life. Ok udah dulu ya segitu aja.

Mau punya kucing lagi

I was just le scrollin my tumblr and saw these such a cute kitten gifs. Gif nya bikin gue mupeng, pengen punya kucing lagi!!! Pokoknya kalo udah gasibuk *soksibuk* mau beli anak kucing yang lucu, imut, fluffy. Gue juga jadi inget sama friday, kangen deh. Pas masih kecil, dia belom bisa turun tangga, jadi mainnya di atas mulu. Pas udah agak gede, dah bisa naik turun tangga jalan-jalan mulu ngikutin gue kemana-mana. Trus kalo gue pulang sekolah dia nyamperin ke pager, kalo gue lagi belajar dia nemenin tiduran di kolong meja, kalo lagi ada yang main piano dia ikutan, kalo gue sedih dia ngehibur (?). Trus juga suka main-main, gendong-gendong, peluk-peluk. Kalo abis dari petshop wangi banget, kangen :') Friday sekarang dimana ya, masih inget ga ya sama gue. Semoga dia baik-baik saja :''') Kangen bangeeet sama Friday, sayang banget sama Friday :'( I will always miss you and love you and waiting for you to come back

<3 
I have no idea abt this. you're nothing but wierd, different, attractive, adorable. and you're successfully ruin my focus. thanks hhhh. pls get the fck out of my mind!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Pra-hiatus

OK GUYS SO HERE IT GOES. We've already reach the second month of 2012 which is means that we-the senior year's student- are getting closer to both National Examination and SNMPTN. How do I feel about that? I absolutely definitely totally feel so insecure, depressed, and way more lack of motivation than before. Those feelings lead me to be more bipolar, high temper, sensitive, and these are make everything even worse. I dont even know whether I should focus for UN first or focus for both UN&SNMPTN for these very beginning. Okay whatever, I actually have so many stuffs to share but I should've not wasting my time posting on here, and I'd better start studying now asap. This probably the last thing I post till I successfully reach my aims, so I'll just type my pray, wishing that you-who read this post- would pray for me too whenever you read this post

In the name of Allah, the most gracious and the most merciful
I witness that there's no lord except Allah
And I witness that prophet Muhammad is the messenger of Allah

I testify that Allah is my lord
And I testify that Islam is my religion
And I testify that Muhammad is teh prophet and messenger of Allah
And I testify that the Holy Quran is my way of life

Ya Allah, please increase my knowledge, and please broaden my intelligences
Ya Allah, please answer my prayer

Ya Allah, please let me get what I always dreaming on. Please let me make my parents happy and proud of me. Please help me to get trhough all the hurdle that comes on my way to reaching my aim. Please give me the strength to not give up on my dream. Please give me your blessings all the time of my life. Please help me to get closer and closer to you, to be a better and better person ahead. LAHAULA WALA QUWWATA ILLA BILLAH <3

If only you read this post

 

Tell me you don’t want me

Just admit it. Stop leading me on, coming and going as you please. Just tell me you don’t care about me or if I’m in your life or not. That way I can let go of you. But don’t pretend to like me so you don’t hurt my feelings or just because it’s amusing to you.

THE LAST POST IN 2011

So guys, this is new years eve and I really have nothing to do. Then I decided to spend my nye in front of my laptop and write some stuffs in here. Im absolutely sure I'll be the most pathetic person alive T_T
Okay I'll write some lists about 2011, here it goes..

LIST OF WHAT POOPS ON MY MIND WHEN I REALIZED THAT 2011 IS ABOUT TO END

• Gilak 3 taun lagi gue udah kepala 2
• 3 taun lagi Farhan officially jadi teenagers (thirteen)
• 3 taun lagi umur ortu gue udah setengah abad
• UN san SNMPTN udah menghitung hari
• Taun depan gue udah bukan pelajar lagi
• Taun depan gue dapet KTP

LIST OF MY HOBBIES IN 2011

• Belanja (super mega extravagant)
• Makan (that's why I gained 2kilos, thanks God)
• Liat youtube (dulu dulu jarang banget)
• Berenang (it's most likely a routinity)
• Nonton film unyu (I used to prefer sci-fi/comedy/animation)
• Nebengin anak kelas (bukan hobi sih, tapi biasanya dulu-dulu gue yang nebeng ke orang wkwk)
• Gapake gesper (hobi yang satu ini berhubungan sama hobi makan)

LIST OF THING IM OBSESSED WITH IN 2011

• Terobsesi siap-siap jadi istri/ibu/iburumahtangga yang baik, rencananya ntar pas kuliah pengen les masak, jait, dll lah.
• Terobsesi rencanain konsep pernikahan, gara-gara liat di tumblr lucu-lucu gitu. 
• Terobsesi nyiapin baju kebaya buat wisuda sama baju bridal
• Terobsesi bikin rumah idaman yang banyak kaca nya, trus rumahnya country2 gitu, backyardnya rumput semua, trus ada loteng yang atap nya transparan buat ruang kumpul2 keluarga
• Terobsesi ngilangin komedo di hidung (tapi ga kesampean)

LIST OF THING I'VE NEVER DONE BUT THEN I FINALLY DID  IN 2011

• Mama nya pacar (sekarang udah ex) jenguk mama gue di RS
• Mama nya pacar jenguk gue di RS
• Gue main kerumah pacar, pacar main kerumah gue
• Pacaran nyampe setaun
• Kena penyakit gajelas bernama infeksi usus
• Jalan sama temen, baru nyampe rumah jam 10
• Temen-temen kelompok senam latian dirumah sampe jam set10 
• Skype video call mehehehe 
• Luluran sendiri
• Berantem, lost contact sama sahabat, gara gara cowo. Totally silly
• Webcam di omegle ketemu orang Jepang gans 

MY FAVORITE STUFFS OF THE YEAR

• Film unyu : I give my first love to you
• Aktor : Masaki Okada, Skandar Keynes
• Band : Maroon5, The Warblers
• Singer : Katy Perry, Avril Lavigne
• Song : Silly Love Song
• Drink : Goodday Coolin
• Snack : Something spicy
• Quote : If it's meant to be, it will
• Crush : *POTATO named Mr. Gatot* <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

LIST OF RESOLUTIONS

• Wanna be closer to my dearest Allah SWT
• Wanna put a smile on my parents, make them proud, give them a simple lil happiness
• Wanna be maturer, nicer, more patient, more lovely, and so on
• Study harder! Solemnly swear I will!
• Have a healthy life, practicing frequently, eat healthy food etc
• GOTTA SAVE MONEY CONSTANTLY!!!!
• Have an ideal weight
• JOIN ARCHERY CLUB FOSHO

LIST OF WISHES

• Semoga gue bisa jadi pribadi yang lebih baik lagi dalam segala aspek. Terutama bisa lebih berbakti sama orangtua, lebih bertakwa kepada Allah SWT, lebih rajin, pantang menyerah untuk mewujudkan cita cita gue :')
• Semoga ditahun yang akan datang, semuanya (gue, keluarga, temen-temen tersayang) jadi lebih baik (apasih), dalam hal kesehatan rejeki dll
• Being accepted in university&faculty that best for me (in Allah's point of view)
• Make my parents proud of me
• Being graduated with marvelous score
• Have a perfect boyfriend (perfect in my point of view)

Yeah there's so many thing I've faced in 2011, good, silly, worth, everything. Every single of it is valuable, and indirectly tell me more and more about what life actually mean, also makes me stronger, even wiser for facing my life ahead. Mmmm I think thats all for nowwwww.

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU GUYS

SEIZE YOUR TOMORROW, LEARN OUR YESTERDAY

LOTS LOVE <3

The awkward moment

The awkward moment when you're crying for something that's not worth enough to be cried for. The awkward moment when you've known and realized about something but you're still crying when you saw the obvius fact. The awkward moment when you cant choose to refuse this feeling though you know it'll hurt you in the end. The awkward moment when you just wanna die, because of something dumb. The awkward moment when suddenly you're feeling that you're lonely facing this damnshitty stuffs. The awkward moment when you dont know what to do and end up post a spam in your blog.

THE AWKWARD MOMENT WHEN YOU JUST WANNA BE ALONE AND NOT IN THE MOOD TO TALK AND THERE'S SOMEBODY WHO KEEPS TEXTING YOU UNIMPORTANT STUFFS AND YOU FEEL LIKE NOBODY FCKING UNDERSTAND YOU

This is important. I hope YOU read this

Just wanna spread out some shts that stucks on my mind. There's something I want guys to understand. A little important thing which can save a girl's heart. Here it goes. I think guys shouldnt act way too nice, or it'll indirectly giving a high expectation for a girl who is in love with you. She'll probably think that you like her too, and thats really bad! You shouldn't act like she is special if she isn't that special for you. Shouldn't pretend to care a lot about her when in fact you dont care that much. UNDERSTAND? AND ONE MORE. If you're typical of sweetie guys who always act way too nice to everygirl, pls just let her know about that shity fact  for the very first time then she won't feel so special, won't think that you like her, won't expect too high, and won't feeling a broken heart.

Please guys, pretty please. A girl's heart isn't something that you can play with. It is a fragile precious thing. Please try to be a gentleman, protect it and don't break it. AND THINK BEFORE YOU ACT. Cause a little thing you do/said will means a whole world to a girl (especially if she has a crush on you/in love with you)

Sweet little thing

Well hey guys, I have no class today and probably tomorrow, and the day after tomorrow. And I really dont know what to do when there's actually a lot of things but none of them is interesting enough to do. Okay since I 'have nothing to do' I'll tell you about someone, about hows the first time I met him. My friend (or bestfriend, whatever) that I haven't meet in real life.

it was the last week of November 2010, when I was really into tumblr and le scroll all day long. He followed me, and messages me, asking for chitchats. he was newbie and firstly we talked alot about how tumblr works, and idk why butthe convs was too interesting to be ended, so we talked till midnight, and the next day we talked again, and again and again and since that moment, we talked everyday. We knew a lil bit more about each other, and we're influented each other about stuffs we like. He introduced some kpop to me. I was really hate kpop back than. But he had influented me successfully. And I introduced yiruma to him, and so on. It's like a total fun to have a chat with him.

Months passed and it was February 2011 already. I thought he wouldnt remember my birthday, but then he give me a cute gif and said 'you're really nice person, I hope we could know each other more and get along well till forever. I'd like to meet you in person too, someday :)' Idk why but it was the best gift I had (I mean the second best. the best was from my ex bf).

And then March. The month when Japan got hit by a great tsunami wave. When there was also issues that Philippines and Indonesia are going to get hit by tsunami also. Icould barely imagine if something happened to him, I worried a lot like whatever and I decided to hurry logged in to my tumblr account. Then again being surprised by a bunch of messages from him that said 'Have you heard about the issues?' 'are you okay' 'pls reply asap when you read my messages' I did barely think that he would worried that much :') A lot of things happened that I couldnt tell one by one. Things you should know is, we've been bestfriend already for such a short time (?)

May, when he had a summer holiday. when everything goes wrong. when we're had missunderstanding, and didnt talk for several days. Idk why but I felt a real painful. The fact that we had just being friends about 8 months makes it quite melancholic. Okay I dont wanna talk too much about this. Dunno how to explain about it and you'd probably will never understand about how it feels. Finally the missunderstanding between us had been resolved yay. But since that, everything's gone awkward and we didnt talk as much as before. But we're still had fun instead. And this was the time that I decided to lost contact and gone forever (lebe). I created new account and ignoring the old one without deactived it cause it is too precious to be deactived.

Then it comes June, July, came back to school as a senior year student. August, September, and November. It was his birthday, and I didnt know whether I should greeted him or not. But I decided to made him a grafitti via facebook. Guess what? He didnt give any response. Great, it's like great as hellafckngdmnsht. Since that, I was really sure that we wont talk anymore, we'd just be ex-friend (?) and forget each other.

December. The first term of senior year ended already. Today, I have nothing to do and decided to check my facebook account and being surprised by one message notification from him :') I was like 'omg I thought he didnt want to talk with me anymore, I wone krai'. I wish he forgive my absenceness. I wish we could get a long as well as the previous several months. I really wish to meet him in real life someday, somehow.

Sometimes people come to your life to make everything sweeter, nicer, better. Doesnt mean that he'll stay forever. If it meant to be than he'll stay forever. If he didnt mean to be, then he won't. But he'll still leave you a lil good memories (or probably a bunch of good memories) that you wont regret

PS : SORRY FOR WRONG GRAMMAR, I KNOW IM BAD

Gajur (galau jurusan)

Assalamualaikum wr. wb
Sekarang udah bulan desember nih, berarti udah makin deket penghujung masa-masa SMA dan gue harus bener-bener memantapkan pilihan gue buat nerusin studi ke jenjang yang lebih tinggi esese. Ternyata oh ternyata ngegalauin jurusan itu bener-bener hal tergalau yang bikin galau (apasih), ketambahan lagi nilai-nilai gue yang turun semua, makin bikin galau ajedeh. Tapi yaudahlahyahhhhh gue mau bilang

Alhamdulillahirabbil'alamin, thanks a lot for all the blessings You've given to me, dear Allah, please let me make my parents happy and proud of me, please help me to be a better and better person, to get closer and closer to You, please dont ever leave us, spread Your blessings and Your love to us, Amin ya rabbal 'alamin. Ya Allah, if I was meant to get what I wanna get, I believe I'll find the way. But if I wasn't meant to, I believe that You've had a better plan for me. I'll always believe in You, I love You

Ini pasti bakal jadi post terandom dan ter-rubbish di blog ini, dan kalo ada orang baca pasti bakal komentar 'jangan galau mulu kali' Im sorry but I have the right to write whatever I want in here, dont even bother to say a thing. Oke udah segitu aja, gatau lagi mau nulis apa, bye :*

PS : buat orang-orang yang lagi galau, klik ini, dan ini hwhwhwhwhwh

Trotoar oh trotoar

Assalamualaikum wr wb

Oke to the point aja ya, gue mau protes, tapi gatau mau protes ke siapa. Jadi gue memutuskan untuk ngepost protes ue di blog aja. Jadi ceritanya di musim ujan yang becekh ga ada ojekh ini gue jadi sering diturunin di depan jembatan gara-gara kesiangan mulu. Jadi kan gue harus jalan tuh dari jembatan sampe sekolah. Sebenernya deket si, tapi kendalanya adalah. Gue bingung, kenapa si ga ada tempat yang layak gitu buat jalan kaki di pinggiran biar ga ketabrak mobil. Trotoar di pinggir jalan tuh epic fail bgt, terbuat dari tanah yang notabene bakal beceghghgh dan lembek-lembek gajelas gitu kalo abis kena ujan. Ada juga trotoar dari aspal, bagus, TAPI ditengah-tengahnya dikasih tanaman gitu deh. Niatnya si bagus kali ya biar go green, tapi gue kalo jalan di situ jadi nyangkut-nyangkut ranting, miring-miring, ribet banget lah pokoknya.

Emang si, mungkin karena jalan yang gue maksud itu berada di dalam komplek perumahan jadi keberadaan trotoar kecil ga begitu penting, tapi tetep aja bagi gue, bagi orang yang suka jalan kaki di situ, itu penting. Lagipula bukan cuma di jalan depan sekolah gue kok, tapi masih banyak di jalan-jalan raya lainnya yang trotoar untuk pejalan kakinya masih agak kurang nyaman, terlebih lagi kendaraan roda dua suka srepet srepet ngelewatin trotoar, ngambil lahan pejalan kaki.

Yaudah deh cukup sekian aja a protesnya. Wassalamualaikum wr. wb. :')

Curhat

Halo, para pembaca (sok berasa ada yang baca)!!! blog ini sepertinya sedang melewati masa-masa hiatus, udah lama banget nih ga ada yang ngepost sampe berlumut blog nya.
Yaudah langsung aja ya, gue penasaran kenapa ya orangtua sering banget nanyain hal yang sama sebanyak 862485782x dalam sehari. Misal 'kamu kapan terima rapot' padahal kemaren udah nanya, kemaren dan kemarennya lagi juga udah nanya. Mungkin itu sebenernya karena mereka pengen ngajak kita ngobrol tapi gatau apa yang au diobrolin kali ya. Well though its a 'bit' annoying but I still appreciate it and try to be as respectful as I can, which is mean answering that question for 73456293 times. *sekedar info, gue terima rapot
bayangan tanggal 29-10-11, doain ya semoga bagus :')

Oiya di masa-masa sibuk belajar mati-matian untuk tryout un, tryout snmptn, ulangan harian, tugas yang bejibun, dll gatau kenapa otak gue ngerasain in its peak of boredom alhasil makin hari tingkat kemalasan gue makin meningkat, gue doang yang ngerasain apa gimana ya? gimana dong biar tetep semangat lagi, cari gebetan baru kali ya? atau gimana? gimana dong? -_-

yaudah deh berhubung gue lagi galau (bukan galauin cowo) dan banyak pikiran (bukan mikirin cowo) dan lagi pengen bengong (bukan bengongin cowo juga) maka gue sudahi saja sesi curhat gapenting disini, ok, bye <3

Random stuffs

Dear Dad

You taught me how to walk for the very first time

You work so hard to buy me everything I want

You take me wherever even you're so tired

Although we dont really get along well

Just like how I get along well with mom

Although I've never greet you a 'happy father's day'

Just like I greet a 'Happy mother's day' to mom

Although I never seems to worry about you

Just like how Im worrying mom

Although I never say "thanks dad I love you'

Just like I say it everytime to mom

Although we arguing a lot

Although I said that I hate you for a thousands time

But deep inside of my heart

I really love you

As much as I love mom

And I wanna thank you

For your prays that shades me

For your efforts to make me happy

For every love you've given to me

For everything

I give my first love to you

I give my first love to you/Boku no Hatsukoi wo Kimini Sasagu is a Japanesse movie that appeared in youtube recommedation while I was watching a movie there several days ago. The story is about a boy and a girl who are in love since they're 8 years old. They grow up together and end up being a couple, but in sort of time they have to be separated. I have no idea how this movie with such a simple story would be touching and bring me to tears so damn much everytime I remember it! I definitely recommend this to you. Just W-O-W :'''')

“Life is so sad. It’s full of heartbreaks like this. But, I don’t regret a thing; that I met you, that I fell in love with you. If I were to meet you again, even knowing such sadness awaits me, I’d definitely fall in love with you again”

This is the letter made by Takuma

(in manga version)

I was debating about whether to write a will or not,
But if I died,
Just in case, I’d regret it thinking,
”I wish I wrote one”

I decided to write one.

Truthfully, I thought a video would be good.
I actually asked Ritsu-chan to help me.

But for me, I couldn’t do it.

So in the end, I chose to write a letter.

Please use this as my funeral portrait.
If you can, please make my funeral bright, not gloomy.

Mayu,
Please don’t cry, because I am very happy.

I don’t have any regrets.
I lived a fulfilling life.

But, you know, if I am saved…
There are heaps of things I want to do.

Even if I’m one year late…
I want to go to the same university.

Also, when we turn 20, just like I promised,
I want to hold a wedding.

Mayu donned in pure white…
It definitely be beautiful.

Oh, the pools!
I want to go to the pools!
Since I’ve never swam before, you’ll have to teach me.
Laughing is prohibited.
It’d be mortifying!

And then…

Of course, I’d like children.
I want to be a dad too.

Mayu,
You’ll definitely be a strict mom, so I’ll spoil the kids horribly.

A girl would be nice…
I want to say how cute she is every day.

Oh!
But if it’s a boy…
I wonder if we could play baseball together!
At our son’s sports meet, I’ll definitely be fired up!

Because of my illness,
At my sports meet, I could only sit and watch.
The class’s parent race was the only time the Kakinouchi could participate.
Dad was so fast…

I, too, if we have children, want to show them good things.

That is my dream.

Mayu, if I die, this is my last request.

In my stead, please fulfill my dreams.
You have to…have a family with someone and be happy.

Make sure you fall in love again with someone else…

But I hope…

I hope that our first love will be the fulfillment of that dream…